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Sunday, June 27, 2010

What a wonderful week!

Well, my training for the triathlon started this past week. Alex and I started going to the pinnacle building early in the morning before work to swim a few laps. The first day was hilarious because i could barely swim 6 laps. By the end of the week i could swim a half a mile without any problems. I think the scariest part of the triathlon is the swimming. I'm doing the Rush triathlon here in Rexburg. It starts at Rainbow Lake and ends in the BYUI stadium. I'll swim a mile, bike 25, and run a 10k. It's a pretty good distance. I'm sooo excited. So my early morning training is just for the swimming and then after work i head to the gym for about an hour to lift weights and run. I don't have a road bike so i have to use the gyms bikes. I'm going to start renting one from the ORC on campus on my days off.

This weekend i started feeling super sick. Friday i came home from work early and i've just been laying in bed ever since. I got up just in time to run to church to give my lesson and then i came home and crashed again. This bug isn't going away very fast.

But on a better note, i've found a new show that has really kept me entertained. I've been laying in bed watching Vampire Diaries. It's one of those cheesy shows that just sucks you in. So, as i've been laying in bed i've been watching it. It actually really makes me want to read the books. I've heard their are pretty good.

I've started reading a new book called Atlas Shrugged. For any of you that don't know, i'm a pretty hardcore libertarian. Meaning i believe in low involvement from the government and no free handouts from them either. I'm excited because this book is pretty much described as the Bible for Libertarians. let's see how well i'll like it. So far the author is pretty wordy and descriptive, but to be honest i really like that. It helps me slow down my life. Books now a days i feel like skip over good detailing to jump to every point far too quickly. I think it goes back to the fact that we live in a fast paced world where we don't' want to have to wait or exercise patience. I know i'm like that.

Speaking of exercising patience. I really want to get prego. I was looking around at all the girls today in church that are pregnant or just having children and i guess my problem is that i don't want to exercise patience. I really just want to get pregnant now. The other day i went into the temple and just had a good vent session with my Heavenly Father about it. I told him that if he would just give me hope that it is possible that i can have kids then i would be okay, then i would be able to wait for his time table. Well, a couple weeks after that i was blessed with that feeling. At first i thought i got the answer yes you are pregnant now, but after my period started i realized that the feeling i was getting was what i asked for in the temple. It was the feeling of hope, of a yes it will happen. So, now i must keep my end of the bargain. I must trust in His time table and just wait patiently.

Life is so wonderful! I've already been blessed beyond measure! Every day i can't help but count my blessings because i feel like i have so many.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Teton Dam marathon!!!

Wow! I did it! All my hard work paid off! It was truly an amazing experience. I can't wait to do it again. The finish line was an emotional thing for both Alex and I. Man i have the best husband in the world! Alex got a little teary eyed because he has watched me prepare so much for this. He also knows that i'm not a natural runner by any means. We reminisced yesterday about how i could barely run a mile at the beginning of the year and how my face would be bright red when i was done. ha ha! But Alex has been such a wonderful support this past 3 months of training. He really has cheered me on the whole time! I'm so grateful for him.

I was emotional at the finish line because i feel like all the difficulties about my recent tumor surgery, health conditions due to my thyroid, and my whole infertility trial didn't get the best of me. I almost felt like at the finish line that was the end of it all. It was over. I remember when i came home from my mission, my sister Corky ran up to me screaming and almost knocked me down. Corky just ended a 15 year marriage where she had been the brunt of much abuse. The divorce was difficult and dealing with her own scares and medical conditions, as well as the new forming emotional scars of her children, it was all a little too much for her to handle. She said that when she saw me it was like a feeling came over her of 'it's over'! It was all coming to an end. I now know slightly what she felt like.

It is far from the end, but at least hope is attained with that chapter closing. I can move onto the next chapter knowing that i can beat it. It will not get the best of me. I still get annoyed as i listen to girls moan and complain about how 'hard' it is to be pregnant, and poor them. It's hard because i would take their 'poor' trial over not being able to have children any day. But i'm learning to be more sensitive to the people who surround me. We never know what others are going through. Our small complaints would more than likely be overshadowed by their sorrows and broken heart.

My body is still trying to balance out. My hair falls out so much that in a month their will be nothing left. But i have my health. I'm so tired that sometimes after work all i can do is crash and force myself to get up and make something of my life. But what is the use in complaining?Or giving into the tiredness. Really, nothing good can come from it. So, i take every day one day at a time. I don't allow myself to think of how tired i am because i don't want to give my body an excuse to be lazy. In a lesson a couple weeks ago it was said that it doesn't matter what trials we go through, what matters is how we react to our trials. That is the true judge of character. I fail a lot but i hope i can overcome these ever so small tests that have been placed in front of me.

But back to the marathon! It was great to have the whole family up here for a small little reunion. My brother Kip ran the half. My sister Corky and my mom and dad ran the 5k. My sister Angee did the 10k, and my niece Becka ran the marathon with me.

We also had our best friends the Dials waiting at the finish line for me. Carson had just ran the relay version of the marathon with Craigos, his work.

I just love how my friends and family were cheering me on! You guys are the best! Thanks a ton!!!!